Day 7: Staying determined

You know what? Forget about all that smack I said about giving up. I woke up this morning (at of course, bright and early at 5:30) and realized that I got this far and I should be damn proud of myself. I've been complaining about how difficult this detox has been and it definitely has been a bumpy one but I should be happy that I've been able to get this far.

My nose is still a little clogged and I'm going to stick with my sister's advice that it's probably my body detoxing. Usually, when your body detoxes, the parts of your body that need the detox get bad before it gets better. So I'll take yesterday's allergy attack as that. Plus, on this cleanse, people usually really start detoxing around day 7... I guess I just got mine early.

So last night, I watched Gabe eat his dinner. He had a chicken burger with cheddar cheese, grilled onions and tomatoes with a side southwest salad from Trader Joe's. MMMMMMMMM! It looked really good. After that meal, I was aching for food. Instead of the usual sniff of food to get my fix, I decided to cruise online for a perfect post-fast recipe that can be made in my favorite kitchen tool: the crock pot. I know I'm going to have soup the first day, so I found this yummy looking recipe that has my favorite weird veggie: okra. It says to add canned and frozen stuff but I'll put fresh produce instead. None of that processed, frozen, preservative stuff.

Oh, one more thing. I forgot to mention my favorite part of day 6: Gabe got me a massage and that shiz was AWESOME!!!

Day 6.9

Almost to day 7 and it's been a pretty difficult ride. I've been cleaning more lately. I think I do it so I can keep my mind off food.

I've been getting more stomach aches. Never a head ache but sometimes a tummy problem. I'm tired. Going to watch the rest of the 60 minutes I taped last night. G'nite.

Day 6: Very close to quitting

I'm starting to have a really bad reaction to this cleanse and I don't know if it's working for me... Although I'm not denouncing the Master Cleanse - it changed my life last year. But the whole reason I wanted to do this was to clear out my allergies and find the root of it, which I thought was caused by food.

Then how come I'm sneezing, stuffy nosed and teary eyed? This sucks and leaves me at a crossroads. Should I wait to see if the allergies go away? Should I wait it out? But even if I do wait it out, doesn't that mean food may not even be the reason for these allergies? I mean... I haven't eaten in 6 days! Unless I'm allergic to lemons/limes/cayenne pepper/grade B maple syrup/salt water. Nah, I would have had the reaction from day 1.

This sucks. Off to blow my nose...

Half done

Since I'm in the morning of my fifth day, I'm more like at a medium rare right now. But who's really counting here? The glass is half full, baby!

I went on a cleaning and organizing rampage yesterday. My house looks so good! That's the good side of things.

The bad? As I was saying, my body is feeling fine. Hmm, actually I take that back. Well, you know how I have to do the salt water flush in the morning? I've been waking up before I have to do that and I go to the bathroom anyway - even before the flush. And this may be TMI but whatever. If I gross you out, I gross you out. But I've been feeling like I have to puke in the morning as well. That's a whole new feeling, definitely didn't feel like that last time.

Overall, this time has been a lot more difficult for me. I think my experience before was TOO positive and I psyched myself up for the same feeling here.

My mind is just screwing with me! I'll be watching TV and usually (even when I'm not on the cleanse) I'll see fast food commercials and I'll be disgusted and not tempted at all. But now when I see them I want to be all over it! I was watching Clerks 2 yesterday and I even wanted a burger from Mooby's. Ugh. I think of fruit and vegetables right now and I don't want to have to do with any of it.

I'm hoping and praying to the cleansing gods that I will not crave this stuff when I'm off the cleanse.

Day 4: Staying busy!

It's a new day and it's beautiful outside. Last night was pretty tough for me. Like I said in my earlier post, I really wanted to give up. I wanted to say SCREW IT, I'm eating! But I realized that I'm not even hungry anymore. I'm starting to get that high feeling again. Don't know if that's just me being lightheaded but I definitely feel some sort of high.

I was going to hang with a couple of work buddies today in SF but decided not to go because I really want to take it easy today. I started on Wednesday and worked the first three days on the cleanse. Sorry for those of you I was supposed to meet up with :(

Like the last cleanse, I'm finding myself with a whole lot of free time. I thought that I'd veg out today but I felt disgusting just laying around the house watching TV. So, I talked to an old friend on the phone for a few, got my booty off the couch and cleaned my pigsty of a closet.

Cross your fingers guys! It's gonna be a long weekend for me...

I feel like giving up

Yes, it's true. For all of you who've said they admire me for being able to do this - I actually feel like giving up. I'm not sure if I was this discouraged so early in the game when I did the cleanse the first time.

I was telling my friend, Katie that my experience this time is a lot different. Last time, I used to notice everyone's consumption and was pretty disgusted at how much crap everyone consumes. This time, I think... Ooooh. I want that!

People say that once you get over day three you're all good. I'm nearing the close of that day and it's a bit discouraging to think that I still have a whole week left. GAH!

I'm going to try my hardest to stay on this. My body feels fine. Definitely don't feel like Kelly Kapoor from the Office in last night's hilarious season premiere. But my mind is really getting to me.

Can I smell your lunch? Day 3

Seriously. I want to smell your food and no, it doesn't make it worse for me. I can't describe the feeling well but smelling other people's food is comforting to me. I guess I like to self inflict pain.

I can smell, smell, smell like crazy right now. I was on the BART yesterday and I swear this woman wreaked of onions. I smell B.O. more often and I can just smell everything around me a lot better.

I've also been reading the Master Cleanse bulletin board and it's been very helpful to read about so many people's different experiences.

I'm just so glad it's Friday and that I'll be able to actually sleep in tomorrow. Yay!